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[Artemis]!

We finally have a way to send letters out, and of course I wanted to send something to you. I've wanted to talk to you so badly. It's been hard getting to sleep on my own, and [☆M☆ZING!!] has graduated, so I've had to. I miss you!

Whenever I next see you, I've started an exchange diary for us, and I've written numerous entries for you. They get a little embarrassing, and I can only send out an envelope, so I'm not sending them to you through this~♡

I love you, [Artemis], and I am eagerly awaiting the next time we get to be together. Please take care of yourself, and I'll do the same for you.

-Love, [His Majesty The Emperor]

[Enclosed is a selfie of Eichi with his tsumtsums of Tenn and Wataru, both of which are in maid outfits.]

Edited 2020-11-12 11:26 (UTC)

[I haven't read these since i wrote them in the moment so good luck to both of us]

Dearest Tenn;

It's been a couple of days since you were last here. Miss Yvette suggested I write notes for you, for when you get back, and I was reminded of the diary I exchange with Wataru, so. That's what this is, I suppose.

It's been quite hard without you, even for just these few days. I never really realized how very centering of a presence you were to me until I had to be without you. It's very kind of my unit to try to keep my spirits up by saying that you'll come back, but I can't help wanting instead to chase after you. It was the only good thing to come of that awful trip to Heaven that I undertook with Absinthe- I know there's a way out of this prison now.

Outside is inhospitable, but I need you so terribly.

I'll write again soon. So much has already happened but I'm afraid I'll devolve into tears again if I try to write much more at this moment.

- Missing you, Your Eichi

My love;

I'm writing again in the same day, because I think I'm okay to do so now. So much has happened already- you'll see when you get back. My wings grew back, it was a rather nasty experience, Wataru had to help me free them, but I do not regret asking them to be removed. Your deft hands, cutting through me and sealing me up again... And it held for so long! Being able to match our scars was more than enough for me to never regret it. I wouldn't ask anyone else to remove them again, but if it were you, I'd be happy for them to be cut off as many times as necessary.

Do you remember any part of Hell vividly, My Tenn? Some imps burst into our prison today. Those wretched things that tore my body apart, one finger at a time... if this form of mine is really a body and not just my soul. They seemed more harmless here, but nonetheless it was awful. They blinded me, but it was then that Wataru found me with my wings. Between him and Hurricane I was able to avoid the worst of it, and I spent the night with Wataru. You know I love him dearly, but it just isn't the same as sharing a bed with you. No less pleasant though, just different. I miss you terribly.

Miss Yvette mentioned planning a party for when you get back, but I wonder if it's not too much, between your birthday and planning our wedding. But she did bring up something I'm curious about. The both of us, and Wataru as well, are performers, idols, and that's something we love, whether we are being paid or simply in front of an audience... or even if our audience is only each other. But other than that, food, and some sex acts, I find I'm not entirely sure what you like to do. When you get back, I'd like to find more hobbies to share with you. I want to know everything about you, My Tenn, and to share all that I am with you as well.

-Hugs and Kisses, Eichi

Beloved Empress of my Heart;

I've put this off for a little bit longer than I normally would. I've needed time to collect my thoughts and calm myself. Time moves simultaneously so slow and so very quickly here. It feels like you've been gone for months, and each passing second I desperately flip through the profiles on my phone, hoping your face will return. And so much has happened in the span of a few short days that it feels like those months were all compressed, squeezing any mundane thing out and replacing it with event after event. Let's see, since you've left:

- Imps arrived to harass the idols of this Production
- Leo and I have argued, and I'm still not sure how to deal with him
- My wings grew back and Wataru had to cut open my back to let them free
- We had a game in which I was given to LiliS as a hostage to be tortured(I'll expand on this soon)
- The imp invasion has escalated. I think there are much larger demons out there

And now I've fallen ill. I'm young to be remaining in the dorm for the time being, but it seems other idols are out fighting those things. I'm just too weak to right now. Must be all of the stress. During the hostage game, I tried to get free and shot one of them in the shoulder, and they retaliated with an axe dug so deeply into my shoulder that my arm may have been removed, and that one of my wings that had just recently grown back in was removed. After the violence, their 'leader', I believe she goes by "Amaranth" was. Self-righteous is the best word for it, but between her and one of their newer members, it seemed they were more content to think of me as a "monster" to be slain than a person worthy of understanding, which wouldn't bother me nearly as much if BARiTONES were not absolutely swarmed with visitors, almost all of which wanted to reiterate how cruel and/or stupid we were. It seems LiliS is more interested in making sure everyone blames me for my injury than repairing any relationship. Unsurprising. I'm very tired of the hypocrisy.

Between that, my illness, and the frankly terrifying mess outside, where the power seems to have gone out, and a kind of hideous flaming cloud looming over someplace in the city... What I wouldn't give to have you here. Wataru is spending time with me, bless him, and it's helping! He's always trying to cheer me up, but it is a different energy, and I want to have you with me. To wrap around you and hide in a pile of pillows where the world can't see.

I hope you're okay. I'm scared, Tenn.

My Tenn...

That last entry was unfairly bleak. Or maybe not unfairly, but I don't want to leave you with something written under such negative feelings, when my feelings for you are so overwhelmingly positive, so I'll share some thoughts that have been helping me through:

I've been shamelessly thinking of you lately. More and more, I miss your sweet scent and the feeling of your warmth.

Wataru and I have been intimate more lately, and it isn't unsatisfying of course. I hope that doesn't make you jealous... it's true but it also highlights what I miss so dearly about you, being with you, talking with you, having sex with you. He's bombastic and experimental, sensual and energetic. He teases me mercilessly and plays games, but I remember very often, thinking of my time with him, how lovely it is to be with you.

You once mentioned wanting to satisfy something more in me, and if course you do! You're wonderful, whether you're sending me lewd puzzles to piece together or we are talking while cuddling. I think you thought it was terribly boring of us, to speak and get gradually closer until our lips closed on each other, and then it heated up from there. Sharing our lust from the humble beginnings of a kiss might sound terribly pedestrian, but it was one of the things I loved dearly about being with you. How sitting and talking was enough foreplay for me, and it could lead to consummation of our feelings just by being nearer and nearer to each other until we melded into one. I love touching you in every way, commanding you with that 'villain voice' you poke fun of me for, but also holding you close in my arms and whispering gentle affirmations, peppered with kisses between gasps, ever-growing in volume until we're spent, collapsed against each other.

When you get back, god.

I'm going to ravage you in so many ways. I'll find a way to have more stamina somehow, and I'll just drive into you until we're both unable to move. Maybe Wataru can join in.

- With Love, Eichi♡

Hello, My Darling;

It's been a little bit since I wrote. It isn't that nothing happened, it was just that things were hectic. I killed a host during a new "Betrayal" game. Miss Ruby and Miss Paloma have graduated. My wings have grown back. I was transferred off for a little while, too. And now Wataru is graduating soon.

I'm in better spirits than I thought I'd be. I'm more optimistic than I thought I'd be at this point though. I know Wataru will be there to greet me when I graduate too, though I worry for you so much. I want you here with me. I wish I could have you around for Wataru's graduation and we could all promise that we would not be apart for long.

But that might be a lie, right? It may take some time before we are together again, but we will be. Someday, we'll be together and we can work for our happy ending. I won't rest until I have you as mine once more, and we can be together forever. Whatever happens, I won't forget you, I won't leave you behind. If you can't escape where you are, that is okay! Wait for me, for I will surely find my way to you no matter how long it takes.

-Eternally Yours, Tenshouin Eichi

hurricane: hey is this tenn??

tenn: It is.

hurricane: were u at the game?

Tenn: No.

hurricane: ok
hurricane: ok cool

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Day 303

Idk what day but here's the exchange diary

i also didn't keep track of the ic day because I'm a FOOL

i have no excuse these are all like this

blows you kisses

almost done, just hold on

i realize now i could have just made the entry in my journal public since all of these are out now

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