heavenlyvisitor | Imeeji Continuations

[ it. takes him a moment. to process what eichi is saying. ]

...What do you mean?

I dunno how to say, but I have been keeping things to myself, haven't I? Ah, not that you would know. I didn't tell you why people like Shu hate me so much. And... I haven't gotten all of my feelings in order, so maybe I've been keeping you held close, but not too close.

Because I am afraid I might crush you.

[ he takes a step back, sitting down on the bed with a ... very concerned and confused face. ]

I ... don't understand, Eichi.

[He sits on the bed next to Tenn, bumping him with a shoulder.]

Me neither, if I'm honest.

Uhm, but. I think it is important that you know. It's in the past but I can't look to the future if I pretend it never happened. So uh. I caused a lot of idols to die, before I came here. They call me 'Emperor', because I had power over everything because of my family, and I used it to change things.

I manipulated the idol industry, hoping to remove those who I didn't think worthy, but the way I did it crushed peoples' hopes and dreams until they were left with nothing but despair, and they took their own lives.

I subjected everyone to this wicked treatment- Itsuki-kun, Leo, and even Wataru. And... this game kind of helped me to admit that I regret it.

[ he isnt quite sure what he's hearing. it's very hard to process. ...not because it's unbelievable, but because it is. he's seen the dark aide of eichi, has since accepted it -- has since watched him grow into a much kinder and softer and lighter person. ]

...It's hard to come up with words that justifies that.

[ he wants to, though. he really wants to justify it somehow. ]

Passion, desire, dreams ... Those are something that I could come up with, but to put them against that sounds as if they're cheapening the experience.

...

I don't like hearing it. What you did, who you were. But - ... It doesn't change my feelings. It doesn't change that you've changed.

[Eichi nods, understanding, and eventually goes to take Tenn's hand in his.]

It's okay, Tenn. I didn't tell you because I want you to reciprocate with some secret. I told you because... I want you and Wataru to be the closest people to me. So close that you could never separate us, no matter what, if that is what you want too.

I could try to justify it, too. If you want to know why or anything like that, you need only ask and I can tell you anything, but the important thing to me is that I recognize that I... am allowed to regret it, too. And I wanted you to know about it, so that you can decide how you feel about me and my past.

[He pauses, looking down again in thought.]

Miss Yvette said I've changed too, so if you both are saying it, it must be true, hm?

Mm. You definitely have. Even if you're still the "Emperor", you've become kind, soft and caring. ...In a way that doesn't mean 'weakness', by the way. You've started your rule with Love, rather than with Fear.

[ he brings eichis hand up! and gently kisses his knuckles. ]

...Your past is your past. I don't like it, but - Mmh, neither do you, it seems. You regret it. Even if you can't change what's in the past, you're changing things going foward, mm? I love the Eichi of the Present, so the Eichi of the Past can be disregarded.

[Eichi sighs, feeling like a vast weight has been lifted off of his shoulders. Not that he will forget his past, how could he? But that it should not shackle him anymore.]

And hopefully we can both look forward to Eichi of the Future, fufufu~

I shared some other things too, that were about you, you know.

-Eh? Like what?

Mmmh, like wishing I knew what kinds of things turned you on more~

I'd love to experiment with any sort of thing!

[ ... ah, there we go. as much as tenn would love to just talk about feelings forever with eichi, they DID come here for a reason ..!!

Tenn flushes, pressing his lips together into a pout and turning his face away. ]

Wh .... What do you want to hear?

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I want to hear what you really think of. I've picked up on some things, but I can't read your mind no matter what. So... have you thought of anything you would like to do with me that we haven't done yet...?

[Feelings are great! This is just a different feeling.]

[ he blushes deeper, silent for long enough that it seems as if he isn't going to give an answer.

but-- after a few, patient moments --- he shuffles his body nervously and glances away so that he doesn't have to see eichi's expression while he's talking. ]

..........I like it. When you praise me...

[ he takes a deep breath, trying to focus and clear his mind...!! ]

...Once, when we were acting-- You looked down at me a- and touched my face, and said "Good Boy", and -- ... I- I almost broke,then and there.

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[That gets Eichi's tail wagging a little. He didn't actually think he would get anything out of Tenn, but this is good!]

You like that, hmmm? I should think of different ways to do it then, so I can say things other than just 'good boy'.

[Eichi leans in closer, his free hand brushing some hair from Tenn's face.]

I'm still quite new to everything, but I like to try. Especially if it will put a smile on your face.

...When you-- praise me, then, i- in general. Most things that you say in "Villain Mode" count. Comments on how look, or- ...f-feel, or if I'm- doing something, or acting a way--

........It's things you've already been saying. I just have only been reacting to them, until now.

Imeeji Continuations

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cw: talkin bout those suicides again whoops

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